New Experiences

So the other day, one of my best friends asked if I wanted to do shrooms. I was hesitant. Anything other than weed has always freaked me out, and I didnt really know that much about it. After looking it up, I saw that it is actually a mellow drug, and a mellow high (so long as you dont have a bad trip) and the hallucinations have a "soul-searching" effect on people. Maybe if I do it, I'll figure out what life wants out of me, and I it.

So yeah, I'm doing shrooms tomorrow. Eek!

In other news, I hate my job. That is all.

Music

Listening to the Beatles on repeat seems to make everything better. Certain songs magically attach themselves to feelings I've had all day. For example, today's song is "Here Comes the Sun"; and it's now raining outside my window. And this is a good song. And I've had a very bad day.

Actually, I've had a bad few months.

I am realizing that I am not making the most out of my life. I'm getting lazy and wishing for things to happen, when they wont if I never attempt it. I don't want to work retail for the rest of my life. I want to travel. I want to visit so many places, and when I start thinking about it, I get sad, because realism starts overshadowing my optimism. Shit. Maybe the rain is making me sad. Or the fact that I'm 25 and still don't have a clue about much of anything. I'm supposed to be more responsible and self-sufficient now, right? Damn.

Anyways, there's a Beatles song for that :)